random ramblings

I knew it had been awhile since I wrote….but wow. Two months? I DO apologize. I’ve had several posts running through my head so let’s just catch up in a random ramblings, shall we?

But first, this.

After (finally) remembering my logon to WordPress, I checked out my site stats (fully realizing they were going to be dismal. Is anyone even still there?). Annnnnnyways….one of the cool features WordPress offers is a list of all the search terms people have used to get to your site. You know, if they entered a search term in Google, TWSST came up as a result and they ultimately came to my blog because of it. Let’s just say there were some interesting search terms in there…

20 people stumbled upon TWSST by searching for “ugly boob”

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3 people because of “scary things”

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2 while looking for “insane deer mounts”  (and even stranger, two lines above that, 2 people for “borrowing a kid.”  Why are people searching that term on the internet in the first place?!)

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Finally, and my personal favorite, one lucky visitor found me by searching for “light ugly with three nipples.” 

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I mean…what?! I guess maybe I can understand ONE person getting here searching for ugly boobs…but TWENTY? Did I miss the memo about surfing the web for ugly boobs?? What in the world. Hahaha. I had a nice chuckle out of it. Hope you do too. (psssst….they probably landed on this post…)

Like every other facebook friend of mine, we went to a pumpkin patch this year. However, unlike anyone else, MY patch at a pumpkin pillow.

Pumpkin pillow? What is that you ask?

Observe:

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SO much fun.  I basically spent 20 minutes laughing like a school girl with my sisters.

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And then there was this….

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Oh, yeah Abby had fun at the patch too. Hahaha. 

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Speaking of pumpkins – we had a great first Halloween with Abs. She wanted to be Dorothy this year, so I obliged (what? I’m sure she mentioned it).

Here she is, thrilled with the homemade costume (as most kids are with homemade costumes I assume).

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I got sick and wasn’t able to finish her outfit the way I had envisioned, but you get the idea. The ruby red slippers are too cute. I’m going to have to keep those for sure!  

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I’ve actually been working on a few projects around the house (re-arranging, crafting, nursery updates, a painting project or two, and even some building projects)….so you know what that means? Blogging material! Nothing too big and exciting, but something nonetheless.  I’ve been going through some serious project withdrawal! Hopefully I’ll get to share some of that soon.

(This is how I keep you coming back, with the promise of non-baby-related posts that may or may not ever come to fruition. Tricky, eh?)

The biggest thing happening in my life right now is that I’m back at work part-time. What what? Yep, Yep. It all happened really fast, and it’s probably the most boring topic so I’ll give you the short story.

Boss asks me to come back to work part-time. I’m not sure. He says it’s temporary. I’m not sure. He says I can set my own hours. I’m curious.

Basically, I decided it was a good way for me to test the waters (with something I’m already comfortable doing) and see what working feels like. Because, if I’m honest, I’ve kind of been missing that part of me. You know, the part that utilizes my education and makes me feel smart, useful and challenged. So…I decided to give it a go. If I hate it, it’s over in 3 months. If I like it….well then I know a little bit more than I did before about what some of my own needs might be.

Abby is doing daycare for 2.5 days a week (I only work Tuesday/Wednesday and ½ day Thursday) and she is loooooving it. So much that I worry I’m not stimulating her enough anymore on the other days of the week. Ha.

As for me? I’m not sure how I feel about the whole thing yet. I like my old job.  But I don’t love it. 

I told myself it’s too early to make any judgments about it. It’s only been two weeks and right now I kinda just miss being with Abbers during the day.  Le Sigh.  It seems as though I’m never pleased, eh?  Stay at home, go to work, some of each. Ugh. It’s exhausting trying to figure it all out! But I’m not giving up!   Awhile ago I printed out this quote from Steve Jobs and put it by my craft desk.  I keep reading it and try to remain hopeful that someday I’ll find something I’m truly, truly passionate about.

Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it.

(and that’s the short story you say?!?!)  Yes, yes it is.  Sorry.

Turns out being a hunting widow with a baby is toooooootally different than being just a lonely ‘ol hunting widow. AKA, it’s MUCH MUCH harder now to have the Hubs gone every weekend and I’m MUCH MUCH happier when he returns!

Only two more weeks. 

Two more weeks.

Two more weeks.

I feel like there is so much more to say.  But I can’t take up all my blogging material in one post, right? 

I think part of my problem is that I’m a perfectionist.  I think all of my posts need to be of a certain quality, a certain length and reviewed time and time again before they’re posted.   And while I certainly don’t want to be posting garbage, I think I could alleviate some pressure if I realized not every post has to be a project or a novel.  It can just be a check-in, a story, a thought. 

So I’m going to work on that.  As long as Abby keeps working on her naps (when I wrote this she was in the middle of a 1.5 hour snooze!)

I miss you blog and blog friends.  I hope to be back soon.  Real soon.

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10 comments

  1. Love that quote from Steve Jobs. Certainly gives the mind some things to mull over! I’m certainly no expert, but I can guess that whichever side of the coin you choose, sacrifices will be made. There is not an easy answer to this scenario and I can relate to your inner struggle to figure out what will match your own needs for balance. Good luck to you!
    Can’t wait to see some of these new projects, I’m wondering if any of them include installing a personal pumpkin pillow in your back yard? Because if you’re holding out on me with the pillow I’m going to head over immediately!

  2. Janna –

    Still loving your blog! Such a beautiful spirit you have with such creative talent! Who wouldn’t follow you?! Now that you have your darling little babe I get so excited to see pictures of her within your projects.

    I totally admit it was me searching “ugly boob” trying to find your page! :)

    I hear you on the back to work thing. Being at home is so hard, but heck so is work! Wish we could pick what we felt like doing in the morning each day instead of being so committed to one or the other. Mom, or professional. Hmm!!

    Love you tons!! Miss you tons too!

    XO,
    – Liza

  3. I love that the sisters all have on pink puffs of some sort! Can’t wait for my shot at the pillow. Did Abbers win the lawn mower race? Get amy of Gramma’s leadfoot?

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